What am I doing?

I guess I just want someplace to talk about my crazy life. I can't always talk to my kids who are grown because sometimes the craziness is caused by them. When I want to talk about my husband who really is great I feel like I am giving people a warped impression of him, just because he is bipolar doesnt mean he is not a great husband. And I just dont think anyone can really understand my Mom. I love her so much but she will drive those who are around her crazy very quickly.
Okay here is goes. I am first of all the mom of three great girls who have done their best to make me think I am crazy. Carrie is 32 and the oldest. She is like me in the way that she is the problem solver. She is the calm one in a crisis and the one everyone expects to settle things down when they are out of control. Sara is 31 and the mom of my awesome, funny and very loud grandson Andrew soon to be 2 years old. Sara is the one who has all the answers and wonders what everyone elses problem is. Her sisters say they just give into Sara on most issues because it is just easier then to handle the rath of Sara. Stacey in 29 and my youngest. She is the only one of my kids that has ever lived all by herself. She is very independant but only because she knows when ever she needs anything there are the rest of us out here to be there for her. They will all goes days and not talk with me or call me 10 times in one day. Carrie is married to Nathan and he is wonderful. I am so glad they are together they really are one of those couples that the two halves make a whole. They are trying to have kids but so far it is not happening. I am keeping my fingers crossed. I am also the wife of a very great guy. Four years ago James has his first bipolar break down. We spent three years of being admitted to the hospital, drug changes, doctor visit, more drug changes, counciling, having to quit work, changes in our life style. But we survived. Our marriage is great and we love each other more everyday. Even though our life together did not turn out the way we thought it would I know there is a reason why we are together. I am here to help James be his best and he gives me the reasons my life is always full of surprises some of them are good and some of them can be very bad. Someone asked me the other day how I deal with James's bipolar behavior you know I told them that when James is have good days our life is fun and very rewarding and every one of those days is worth putting up with his bad days because I know the good ones will come back around. Right now James is in Oregon. He drove my mom and her dog back home, she has been visiting for the last 7 weeks. I told my brother today that all of us owe James a huge thank you for doing all the things he does for Mom. She can really set off his bipolar issues but he holds it together enough to take care of the things Mom needs and tries to let Mom's comments roll off. I know she loves him and truly appreciates all the things he does but I also know it is very hard for her to understand some of the reactions and behaviors he has. He hates Mom's dog but he still lets her ride in the front seat with them all the way across the country and walks her when every Mom cant. I know James cant wait to get back home but we had to buy his ticket for 7 days out and they only took 3 days to drive 2500 miles so now he has to wait four days for his flight home.
I have to go in the morning for a 3 hour glucose test yuk! My last blood test showed I have been having elevated blood sugars and this may be why I havent been feeling so great. We will see what happens with that. I wish it was time for another B12 shot they sure did help the way I feel but I still have another week before it is time for one.
Well it is getting late so I better quit for now.